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to look at a car trailer. The Hubby would like to be able to drag the Willys down to Moab a little easier, and we've been looking for something that would do triple duty for the Willys, the race car, and the Purple Cruiserberry if we decide to haul it behind the motorhome. Thus, our quest.

Long story short, we bought the thing. Weather kind of sucked, but we didn't wreck or even come close, so, WIN. Worth the seven-hour drive.

And then I get back and attempt to catch up with my flist. Skip=120, dude, y'all have been busy today.

And in the middle of all that, I'm checking my email, and I've got a review alert for the ReaverFic. Seeing as that the ReaverFic is loaded with very dark angst and major character death, I always wibble a bit when I get a review for it.

The review was:
Well fuck... I don't really know what to say... Fuck...

Mine is an evil laugh. Mission accomplished. What can I say?

(OMIGOSH. Should I have cut that? It makes the post R-rated! Someone's delicate sensibilities might be injured...

Wait, this is LJ. Do people here have delicate sensibilities? Guess it depends on whose ox is being gored. Not that I'm bitter.)

It's weird; I keep getting favorited over there, when I haven't posted anything since July...and then the next newest one was August of '07. I have no idea how people are finding my fic. But...cool? I guess. Glad they're still enjoying it. Although I'm not sure that reviewer "enjoyed" the story. Nor are you actually meant to, because...well. Reavers.

Also, I took the little 'puter with me on our road trip, and poked the not!kkbb/im novelthing yet again. The good news is, I still like it. The bad news is...

Um. There isn't any bad news. Not really. Yay!

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Title: Assimilation
Author: babies stole my dingo (agilebrit)
Fandom: Firefly
Rating: Hard R for general Reaver-y horror.
Length: Short story (a little over 2700 words)
Disclaimer: Joss is the genius behind these characters; I am but a lowly follower. I make no money from any of this, so please don't sue me.
Feedback: Concrit adored! If you see something that can be improved upon, please let me know, even if it's only a typo.
Written for: This is one I came up with on my own, folks. The only one to blame here is me.
Notes: Um, yeah. Reavers. Rape. Major character deaths. You've been warned. Many thanks to

justmalea who helped tremendously with the PTSD stuff, and whose info made this much more realistic than I could have hoped. Any mistakes or liberties are completely my own. Many thanks also are due the Hubby, who provided several valuable suggestions and patted my shoulder while I was getting all shudder-y. I've also been told to put a "Do Not Eat While Reading This" warning on it. Apologies to the nice folks who were made ill by this.
( River was sick. )

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Current Mood: anxious

The ReaverFic has a "the end" at the bottom of it. Yay.

justmalea is looking it over for obvious errors and verisimiltude. *hugs her* The Hubby has made a couple of suggestions, which I have incorporated. He also gave me the title, which is cool because I suck at titles. *hugs him* I'll probably post it tomorrow.

OMG, this fic. I obviously read way too much Stephen King when I was in high school, and it scarred me for life. I need to write fluffy bunny fic now, plzkthx, Antubis. I realize that you're a fanged anteater who eats people's souls and you don't really do "fluff" as such, but maybe just this once?

I've done the math, and I've scribbled around 40,000 words this year in 14 finished fics (if you count all those Spike/Fred drabbles as one fic, which seems reasonable). Wow. For some reason, I don't feel like I've been writing at all, but that's most of a novel. Weird.

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The ReaverFic has a "the end" at the bottom of it. Yay.

Current Mood: accomplished

I bought S2 of "Lois and Clark" the other day, and we watched the first disc last night. Have I raved about how much I OMG love this show lately? We have a hero who is, for want of a better word, perfect (so what if he's a Stu? He's Superman. Shut up). We have a love interest who is terribly, terribly flawed...but tries to overcome them. Lois is petty, selfish, slightly-back-stabby, condescending, and egotistical. But she's also vulnerable, insecure, sweet, and usually lets her better nature take over after she throws a tantrum. This makes a nice change from the standard formula of the guy being a horrible bastard and changing for the "love of a good woman."

We have intact marriages of people who really love each other. Martha and Jonathan are wonderful and truly in love, and Perry dearly loves Alice--even though I don't think we've ever actually met her on-screen. But she's a presence, and because he loves her, we do too.

The villains are delicious also. I love Lex's layers, and the Prankster made me remember why I loved Bronson Pinchot when he was on "Perfect Strangers."

And there's snark. Lovely, lovely snark. I think I may be to the point where, if a show doesn't have snark, it can still be a "good" show for me, but it doesn't rise to a standard of excellence.
My Muse is a sadistic bastard. I've got 2300-or-so words of Jayne-torture, and I'm not done yet. The stuff that happened to him in "Cerberus"? That ain't nothin', baby. At least that was in third person. Jeepers. I keep coming up with new memories to torment him with, new ways to dig the knife in. And this is a character I actually like. I'd hate to see what would happen if I turned Antubis loose on Eve or Kennedy. *shudders*

I was reading the shooting script for "Bushwhacked," and found another Jayne/Zoe moment. The "basketball" game at the start? There's a lot of dialogue in that scene that didn't actually make it onscreen. And Wash and Zoe are on opposing teams, with Wash and Jayne on the same team. Wash hollers "Cover my wife!" and Jayne says "Every time you ain't lookin'." *snerk*
Movie Quote Meme answers for the two that didn't get guessed:

"I didn't know you had that."
"That's why they call it a concealed weapon." -- Jake Speed.

Free will. It's like butterfly wings: once touched, they never get off the ground. No, I only set the stage. You pull your own strings. -- Devil's Advocate.
We're going shopping in Park City tomorrow as part of my scheme to get us out of the house more. I may drag us to the drive-in tonight. "Cars" is playing with PotC:DMC, and "Lady in the Water" is playing with "Superman Returns." Mmm, choices. We saw "Monster House" yesterday. I liked it, but I didn't love it. Actually being a writer has started making me analyze why a movie doesn't work for me, which is an interesting process. But it's worth seeing; the animation is gorgeous.
The 2-liter soda bottle I was saving money for writercon in has been retired in favor of a silly-looking elephant bank that I picked up at Wally World for $8. I'm going to continue to put money away, and save it for things like carvings and vacations. Wish me luck in that endeavor; I spend money like a maniac.
I've gotten my refund from Paypal for the comics I never got. Now I have to go hunting the one again. Honestly, I wonder if something happened to the seller; there's at least three of us that got stiffed on our widgets in that batch of auctions...and Paypal said they were able to recover the money from the seller, so the money was accessible by them. I don't know if they'll actually go into your checking account to recover money or if they only take it out of your Paypal account, though. I never leave money in my Paypal account.

Current Mood: busy

I bought S2 of "Lois and Clark" the other day, and we watched the first disc last night. Have I raved about how much I OMG love this show lately? We have a hero who is, for want of a better word, perfect (so what if he's a Stu? He's Superman. Shut up). We have a love interest who is terribly, terribly flawed...but tries to overcome them. Lois is petty, selfish, slightly-back-stabby, condescending, and egotistical. But she's also vulnerable, insecure, sweet, and usually lets her better nature take over after she throws a tantrum. This makes a nice change from the standard formula of the guy being a horrible bastard and changing for the "love of a good woman."

We have intact marriages of people who really love each other. Martha and Jonathan are wonderful and truly in love, and Perry dearly loves Alice--even though I don't think we've ever actually met her on-screen. But she's a presence, and because he loves her, we do too.

The villains are delicious also. I love Lex's layers, and the Prankster made me remember why I loved Bronson Pinchot when he was on "Perfect Strangers."

And there's snark. Lovely, lovely snark. I think I may be to the point where, if a show doesn't have snark, it can still be a "good" show for me, but it doesn't rise to a standard of excellence.
My Muse is a sadistic bastard. I've got 2300-or-so words of Jayne-torture, and I'm not done yet. The stuff that happened to him in "Cerberus"? That ain't nothin', baby. At least that was in third person. Jeepers. I keep coming up with new memories to torment him with, new ways to dig the knife in. And this is a character I actually like. I'd hate to see what would happen if I turned Antubis loose on Eve or Kennedy. *shudders*

I was reading the shooting script for "Bushwhacked," and found another Jayne/Zoe moment. The "basketball" game at the start? There's a lot of dialogue in that scene that didn't actually make it onscreen. And Wash and Zoe are on opposing teams, with Wash and Jayne on the same team. Wash hollers "Cover my wife!" and Jayne says "Every time you ain't lookin'." *snerk*
Movie Quote Meme answers for the two that didn't get guessed:

"I didn't know you had that."
"That's why they call it a concealed weapon." -- Jake Speed.

Free will. It's like butterfly wings: once touched, they never get off the ground. No, I only set the stage. You pull your own strings. -- Devil's Advocate.
We're going shopping in Park City tomorrow as part of my scheme to get us out of the house more. I may drag us to the drive-in tonight. "Cars" is playing with PotC:DMC, and "Lady in the Water" is playing with "Superman Returns." Mmm, choices. We saw "Monster House" yesterday. I liked it, but I didn't love it. Actually being a writer has started making me analyze why a movie doesn't work for me, which is an interesting process. But it's worth seeing; the animation is gorgeous.
The 2-liter soda bottle I was saving money for writercon in has been retired in favor of a silly-looking elephant bank that I picked up at Wally World for $8. I'm going to continue to put money away, and save it for things like carvings and vacations. Wish me luck in that endeavor; I spend money like a maniac.
I've gotten my refund from Paypal for the comics I never got. Now I have to go hunting the one again. Honestly, I wonder if something happened to the seller; there's at least three of us that got stiffed on our widgets in that batch of auctions...and Paypal said they were able to recover the money from the seller, so the money was accessible by them. I don't know if they'll actually go into your checking account to recover money or if they only take it out of your Paypal account, though. I never leave money in my Paypal account.

Current Mood: busy

It really is. I don't suppose that writing a descent into madness is ever a pleasant exercise, but the things I'm coming up with in order drive him further along that path are...disturbing me.

I'm doing a bit of research on Post-Traumatic Stress to figure out how I'm going to work this. One of the things that jumped out at me was this line:

People who suffer from PTSD also have extreme emotional or physical reactions such as chills, heart palpitations, or panic when faced with reminders of the event.

That's "triggers," and I knew that. And what's scary about this is that my character is literally surrounded by reminders of the traumatic event and is physically incapable of escaping them. This is the darkest thing I've ever written, worse even than the DamnFic, which at least had a light at the end of the tunnel. This one? Um. Not so much.

Yeah, I'm going to need to write something with happy fluffy bunnies or something after I finish this one.

In other news, either my flist is brilliant, or I made the movie quote meme too easy on y'all. Only two left, and the first one was made in 1986, is really obscure, and is universally considered to be a bad movie. I don't care; I love it anyway. The other one is probably not one that my flist would expect to be on my list of favorite movies, because, dude.

Yeah, remember what I said about my brain being a dark and scary place? It really is, sometimes.