My brain is a dark and scary place.
Jul. 27th, 2006 10:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
agilebritIt really is. I don't suppose that writing a descent into madness is ever a pleasant exercise, but the things I'm coming up with in order drive him further along that path are...disturbing me.
I'm doing a bit of research on Post-Traumatic Stress to figure out how I'm going to work this. One of the things that jumped out at me was this line:
People who suffer from PTSD also have extreme emotional or physical reactions such as chills, heart palpitations, or panic when faced with reminders of the event.
That's "triggers," and I knew that. And what's scary about this is that my character is literally surrounded by reminders of the traumatic event and is physically incapable of escaping them. This is the darkest thing I've ever written, worse even than the DamnFic, which at least had a light at the end of the tunnel. This one? Um. Not so much.
Yeah, I'm going to need to write something with happy fluffy bunnies or something after I finish this one.
In other news, either my flist is brilliant, or I made the movie quote meme too easy on y'all. Only two left, and the first one was made in 1986, is really obscure, and is universally considered to be a bad movie. I don't care; I love it anyway. The other one is probably not one that my flist would expect to be on my list of favorite movies, because, dude.
Yeah, remember what I said about my brain being a dark and scary place? It really is, sometimes.
I'm doing a bit of research on Post-Traumatic Stress to figure out how I'm going to work this. One of the things that jumped out at me was this line:
People who suffer from PTSD also have extreme emotional or physical reactions such as chills, heart palpitations, or panic when faced with reminders of the event.
That's "triggers," and I knew that. And what's scary about this is that my character is literally surrounded by reminders of the traumatic event and is physically incapable of escaping them. This is the darkest thing I've ever written, worse even than the DamnFic, which at least had a light at the end of the tunnel. This one? Um. Not so much.
Yeah, I'm going to need to write something with happy fluffy bunnies or something after I finish this one.
In other news, either my flist is brilliant, or I made the movie quote meme too easy on y'all. Only two left, and the first one was made in 1986, is really obscure, and is universally considered to be a bad movie. I don't care; I love it anyway. The other one is probably not one that my flist would expect to be on my list of favorite movies, because, dude.
Yeah, remember what I said about my brain being a dark and scary place? It really is, sometimes.
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Date: 2006-07-27 05:27 pm (UTC)On a kinda related note, I actually have PTSD so if you'd like to discuss real life experiences, I'd be glad to. I'm not an expert by any means, but I'm more than willing to be open about what I have experienced.
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Date: 2006-07-27 05:32 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-07-27 05:35 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-07-27 06:42 pm (UTC)My father, who had served in WWII and had suffered battle fatigue, the feared 'Thousand Yard Stare,' never suffered relapses, as far as I know, but always made a determined effort to avoid any reminder of his war time experiences.
I always wished that Whedon and company had examined the possibility of Buffy Summers experiencing a 'personality meltdown' in the wake of the events shown in 'Chosen'. It would certainly explain many of the Scoobies behavior during the final season of Angel.
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Date: 2006-07-27 06:51 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-07-28 12:41 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-07-28 03:56 am (UTC)They did come out the same year. Honestly, I don't really expect anyone to get it, but it would have been fun if someone had. :)