You know what?

This writing game is really really weird.

I posted yesterday that I "snapped Ben like a rubber band." And truly, I thought I had.

But when I was on the bike last night, re-reading that scene? I realized that he didn't break at all. He was in complete control the entire time, he stopped killing exactly when he wanted to, he was consciously aware what the consequences of him taking those guys out would be, and he ended up back on the table completely on his own terms.

So, yeah. He didn't break. He made a decision.

Sometimes, we don't know our own characters as well as we think we do, at least at first blush.

Sorry, Ben. I underestimated you. People seem to do that a lot.

You know what?

This writing game is really really weird.

I posted yesterday that I "snapped Ben like a rubber band." And truly, I thought I had.

But when I was on the bike last night, re-reading that scene? I realized that he didn't break at all. He was in complete control the entire time, he stopped killing exactly when he wanted to, he was consciously aware what the consequences of him taking those guys out would be, and he ended up back on the table completely on his own terms.

So, yeah. He didn't break. He made a decision.

Sometimes, we don't know our own characters as well as we think we do, at least at first blush.

Sorry, Ben. I underestimated you. People seem to do that a lot.

Also.

Is it strange that, in the scenes from Angeline's POV, I want to use British spellings and have to make almost a conscious effort not to? Because it looks weird to have her headspace in American English.

Yeah, I don't even know. Someone just shoot me.

In case anyone's wondering, I cracked 22,000 words this morning. I've written over 10,000 words this week. And the day's not over yet.

Dude.

Also.

Is it strange that, in the scenes from Angeline's POV, I want to use British spellings and have to make almost a conscious effort not to? Because it looks weird to have her headspace in American English.

Yeah, I don't even know. Someone just shoot me.

In case anyone's wondering, I cracked 22,000 words this morning. I've written over 10,000 words this week. And the day's not over yet.

Dude.