Ah, the things we research for our writing.

[agilebrit]

Dissociative Identity Disorder. Obviously, I'm going to need more than just this article, and I've got some notes from a panel at LTUE as well, but...yeah.

Because this is failure on a massive, massive scale, which possibly who am I fooling, definitely piled yet another trauma on poor Ben's head. Which is not what I intended to do when I set out to write this scene, but that's for sure what happened. In spades.

Oh, god. The fact that I think the only possible way he comes out of this in any way functional is by calving off another personality to deal with it...

I'd drop an f-bomb here, but even that word is not enough for the sheer amount of horror I'm feeling right now.

*headdesk* *headdesk* *headdesk*

And please don't think I'm taking this lightly. I am so not. At all.

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[agilebrit.livejournal.com]

The light at the end of his tunnel is getting vamped, which mutes the emotions (except when it comes to the people he loves). So I'm going to "fix" him. It's just a matter of keeping the psychology at some semblance of "real" before I do.

He already goes into Soldier Mode on occasion. I think it's "just" (for a certain value of "just") taking that bit of him and calving it off so he doesn't remember when he does it. Maybe once, before the climax.