Gaaaaaaaaaaah.

Okay, I have about 500 words of hitman!Ben story, which, go, me.

The problem is that I'm focusing on his pain right now to the detriment of my plot. Ten percent done, and the sultry blonde in the red dress has yet to cut to the chase.

*bangs head on keyboard*

Oh, well. Take my own advice. Get it written, then fix it. The first draft is allowed to suck. The first draft is going to suck. That's why we call it a "draft." Can't edit words that aren't on the page...

Gaaaaaaaaaaah.

Okay, I have about 500 words of hitman!Ben story, which, go, me.

The problem is that I'm focusing on his pain right now to the detriment of my plot. Ten percent done, and the sultry blonde in the red dress has yet to cut to the chase.

*bangs head on keyboard*

Oh, well. Take my own advice. Get it written, then fix it. The first draft is allowed to suck. The first draft is going to suck. That's why we call it a "draft." Can't edit words that aren't on the page...

Dammit, Ben...

He just told me under no uncertain terms that he has no desire to take this case.

*headdesk x 1000*

1200 words in, and I have no story.

Ben, honey, don't make me beat you. Because you know I will.

Oh, hey, I think I may have just thought of something. Maybe. Of course, that means my first twist doesn't work, but maybe I can work it into the second one. That being said, the second one is a bit...convenient, but I can't help thinking of the line from KKBB:

"Your case, and my case? They're the same fucking case!"

Well. It'll come out in the writing, no doubt. It usually does.

Dammit, Ben...

He just told me under no uncertain terms that he has no desire to take this case.

*headdesk x 1000*

1200 words in, and I have no story.

Ben, honey, don't make me beat you. Because you know I will.

Oh, hey, I think I may have just thought of something. Maybe. Of course, that means my first twist doesn't work, but maybe I can work it into the second one. That being said, the second one is a bit...convenient, but I can't help thinking of the line from KKBB:

"Your case, and my case? They're the same fucking case!"

Well. It'll come out in the writing, no doubt. It usually does.

You know what feels really good?

A thousand-word day. That feels really damn good. Even if the story is running off in a direction I didn't expect and I'm half-thinking I started too late rather than too soon (I'm starting with a reaction shot rather than a body) and Ben is being an uncooperative little shit.

I really have no idea where this is going. Of course, what else is new? *bangs head on keyboard*

But I think I'm done working on the thing for now. We shall see what happens on the morrow...

I'm also wondering if I should use new characters for this instead of plugging Ben into it. I'm not sure how much play his PTSD is going to get and how well I can really explain it within the scope of this story, which is supposed to be a standalone.

Well. If I need to change it, I'll change it. This is why we call it the first draft.

You know what feels really good?

A thousand-word day. That feels really damn good. Even if the story is running off in a direction I didn't expect and I'm half-thinking I started too late rather than too soon (I'm starting with a reaction shot rather than a body) and Ben is being an uncooperative little shit.

I really have no idea where this is going. Of course, what else is new? *bangs head on keyboard*

But I think I'm done working on the thing for now. We shall see what happens on the morrow...

I'm also wondering if I should use new characters for this instead of plugging Ben into it. I'm not sure how much play his PTSD is going to get and how well I can really explain it within the scope of this story, which is supposed to be a standalone.

Well. If I need to change it, I'll change it. This is why we call it the first draft.